I am saddened.

The mistakes that I made in my Math paper 1 and paper 2 just keeps haunting my mind.
I realize I really made lots of careless, stupid, mistakes. For some, I even know how to do it. But I thought it wasn't that way. So I didn't attempt to try it. Nb. Nb. In the end, it's the correct way to solve the fucking question lurh. Now I'm full of regrets -_- . Why why why. Why am I so dumb?

I don't wanna think about them anymore but they just keep coming into my mind. -_- Before I sleep, I think about them. Aft I wake up, first thing I thought of, is also them. Argh. I think I'm going bonkers. -_- Is not kz okay. Really just keep thinking about my fucking stupid mistakes T_T . Sian I lost marks so stupidly. Those few marks can even push 1 grade up luh. Nbnb! Hais T_T.

Anyway, I'm no longer moving house -_- . Lame. B'cos my dad went to see fortune teller or what then they sae cannot move house -_- . Ltr got bad luck or what. Wth. I was still eager for the fact that I can finally slim down using the facilities there. But now...? Hais.

Everything's just not going right -'- . Fuck off , problems.  ¶ 10:30 AM 0 Comments

  1 paper down

Hope my English will pass! :/ :/!
Tomorrow's Mathematics Paper 1.
Am I ready? I guess not. But what to do?! ):
I must face reality. Go everyone!
Jiayou for O's! I can't wait for it to end!!!!!!!~  ¶ 7:49 PM 0 Comments

  It's English papers tomorrow!
Having both paper 1&2 in the afternoon. Goodluck to everyone! :D
Crap man. I wished God would bestow me with hardworkiness and determination.
Now, I'm effing slack luh. I haven't even memorized all the report/letter writing formats.
I didn't even practise anything for English.
GG. Hope tml would be a breeze. Or else I can really go jump building liao.

Let me tell you what I did okay! Ytd I play psp until 4+am -_-
Then slp, woke up at 8+ am. Did my prelims paper 2 for 2 + hours. Then watch videos.
Wanted to slp, butthen scared like wasting time. So went down, wanted to do math, butthen my damn itchy fingers go switch on the computer button.

So? My eyes, soul, brain were stuck to the computer's screen. It's like a whirlpool sucking me in deeper and deeper, till I could not free myself from it's clutches . HAHAHA! Omg. I suddenly have the inspiration to do descriptive writing tml. HAHAHA. Please God, let the compre, compo, situational writing, everything, tml be easy in my eyes. Please give me a clear state of mind, the touch of wisdom and creativity tomorrow.

Lastly, please please, let the exam go without a hitch tml. After my exam, please grant me the sense of urgency for my other exams! THANKS , AMEN!

BYEBYE EVERYONE!

11 : 11 ! WO AI NI!

11/11 I AM WAITING FOR YOU! :D  ¶ 9:31 PM 0 Comments

  I want to freeze time.
I realize that right after my O's, my schedule is quite packed.
:o . Don't have enough time to do what I planned 2 months ago.
Lmao.  ¶ 2:47 PM 0 Comments

  I cant wait.  ¶ 7:38 PM 0 Comments

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  School life's getting more interesting.
Discovering a .... "secret" place.... Hahaha!
Sounds just like some detective thingy...
Self-revision just by ourselves(D, G, VC & me)...
In a room...
Then slacking, playing monopoly tgt.

Because people rarely enter this room, it feels like...
A place where only we go.
A place that's owned by us. Lol!
I think I watch too much anime liao.

:D . Me like this kind of life!
But too bad to say, this kind of life is ending soon.
One day I wanna go to the "secret" place to play!  ¶ 7:03 PM 0 Comments

  Hypnosis. I love studying. Hohoho!
I love doing difficult Math questions.
I love killing my brain cells.
I love memorizing stuff!
I really do love studying!

I hate slacking.
I hate procrastinating.
I hate watching dramas/anime.
I really do hate wasting my time!

HOHOHOHO.

ME LOVE STUDYING! :P. DO YOU?

Labels: Self Denial.

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  Imma watching One Litre Of Tears now.
Shyt, can't seem to just shake off all temptations TT !
I'm really curious. Will it really make me cry like 1 litre of tears?
Hahahaha! Jk.
Anyway, I'm gonna pract math today! :) .
No more slacking Yulin.

I can't wait for O's to end.
Me wanna bake! :p
I wanna make cream puffs. Cos I see Absolute Boyfriend, then I inspired lor. xD  ¶ 6:40 PM 0 Comments

  Dear genie,
I wish you would gimme a much more interesting life.
Thankyou.  ¶ 11:20 PM 0 Comments

  What is paradise?

Wikipedia - Paradise is a place in which existence is positive, harmonious and timeless. It is conceptually a counter-image of the miseries of human civilization, and in paradise there is only peace, prosperity, and happiness. Paradise is a place of contentment, but it is not necessarily a land of luxury and idleness.

Even though I'm not a christian, I'm just very puzzled.
How do we know if there's really paradise? Afterall, it occurs to me that this whole world, our Earth is built on money. Without money, there wouldn't be place for development. There would not be people wanting to improve our lifes, & so on. So, there wouldn't be even technology, music... etc, existing right? :/ .

So I can safely say that this world is built by money right?
However, I must say, that even though money brings around lots of entertainment, lots of fun, lots of improvements in our life, it also brings about disruptions to the world. There's disparity between the rich and the poor. So many countries, so many people are suffering. Why? Due to money...

Why is there so much crime & bad things happening in the world today? Because of money too...
People, in desperation, often steal money, whether it's from their own parents or strangers, just because they don't have enough. People suffer from hunger, die from infections, etc, is also because of money.

So I conclude that money brings about pros and cons, like almost all other things on Earth.
We derive happiness from money. But we derive sadness and anger from them too...

I was thrown into an argument with my mother about paradise. I really can't imagine how paradise will be...? I guess there wouldn't be any sort of money in it right? Since money is really sinful. But if there's no money, there wouldn't be any development right? :/ . All humans are imperfect. If there were to be a form of currency, people would surely show their greedy nature I guess? So, I really can't imagine life in paradise.

There wouldn't be any work, there wouldn't be any technology... There would only be music from the nature... Birds chirping and leaves rustling. So I conclude, Paradise is plain boring...?

I told my mother... Rather than to have an everlasting life in a "perfect" world without any illness/sins, I would rather have several lifes in a imperfect world with entertainment&sins. Because I wouldn't want to lead a life like a caveman who just enjoys nature...? :/

It's just weird. I just can't understand everything ): .

How how how? I have taken interests to many things...
T_T . But I only have 1 life. I can't fulfill all my wishes...
I really wished I had a few lifes. Then I'd be able to live life happily, without regrets...  ¶ 4:31 PM 0 Comments

 
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