Friday, May 22, 2009
Ytd,
Schooled, & went swimming w Huiyen. Aft which, went home & while watching tv, fell asleep.
Damn my parents. I really fucking can't stand them, esp that man. Ah. Idk.
Then woke up today with aching arms. Damn pain. Until now. Schooled as usual today, every minute that passed by just felt like an eternity. Couldn't wait to end school.
Seriously feel that if they keep giving us mock paper till O lvls, is not really a good idea. Initially felt that it's good. But after seeing my compo results for one of it, I just became demoralised & don't feel like continuing it anymore. I think by the time O lvls come, our mind would be left with no brain cells lor -.- .
Ah, then homed. Eat,sms,dozed off, comp.
I'm so so so troubled. I keep thinking of my current problems. Until I feel like crying. I just feel fucking helpless. I hate this fucking feeling.
&&, change my parents sucky attitude for the better pls. TY.
I want to beng kui(Breakdown) le!!!! ]':
Schooled, & went swimming w Huiyen. Aft which, went home & while watching tv, fell asleep.
Damn my parents. I really fucking can't stand them, esp that man. Ah. Idk.
Then woke up today with aching arms. Damn pain. Until now. Schooled as usual today, every minute that passed by just felt like an eternity. Couldn't wait to end school.
Seriously feel that if they keep giving us mock paper till O lvls, is not really a good idea. Initially felt that it's good. But after seeing my compo results for one of it, I just became demoralised & don't feel like continuing it anymore. I think by the time O lvls come, our mind would be left with no brain cells lor -.- .
Ah, then homed. Eat,sms,dozed off, comp.
I'm so so so troubled. I keep thinking of my current problems. Until I feel like crying. I just feel fucking helpless. I hate this fucking feeling.
- I need money. MONEY. Money.
- BUT, all I've in my wallet is a meagre amt of 3 bucks. Nabei. I can't go get $$ from my mom(though she owe me alot) mainly becos of my pride & I feel she wouldn't give me any cos I really've spent alot these few days.
- Fucking parents, WANT TO DEDUCT MY ALLOWANCE. Knn.
- I HAVE ALOT OF THINGS I STILL NEED TO BUY. At least need like 3xx bucks. But I can't even get money, can't even work, SERIOUSLY HATE THIS FEELING.
- O LVLS IS 1 wk + away. & my Chinese standard seriously... If can, go bang wall. I really wanna do well. But oh well, seems it's quite impossible. Unless a miracle can appear...?
- Why do I always feel hungry? Even though I did nothing, LIKE JUSTNOW, I only slept after I ate, but upon waking, I feel so fucking hungry. Walao eh. Sleep aft eat = grow fat. Wake up still wan eat = MORE FAT right? I very scared sia. Want to lose weight really very hard. I need professional help I guess.
- I still owe Eileen $$$$.
- Motherfucker lah. ALL MY PROBLEMS ARISE FROM MONEY LAH. GIVE ME MONEY LAH. -.- GOT MONEY I JIU WON'T FEEL SO TROUBLED LIAO. EVEN THE PROBLEM OF BEING FAT ALSO CAN SOLVE. Spend a few hundred bucks to go some london treatment, sure can slim down liao loh.
- Tmd. WHY got so many fucking ants biting me now? -.-
&&, change my parents sucky attitude for the better pls. TY.
I want to beng kui(Breakdown) le!!!! ]':
& baby is replying so slowly }:
I v sad.
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