Her case was classified as "serious" and even if she were to wake up, she would be half-paralyzed. This is irreversible.

I received a sms from my dad regarding it that morning (I was in sch). But somehow... I didn't feel the sense of fear(that she may leave us) one should feel... It was like just... A stranger whom was of no concern to me. :/

That day, along with my sisters, I went to the hospital to visit her. I think it was last friday...?

She was lying unconscious on the hospital bed, with tubes poking through her skin. Upon seeing her, 1 of my cousin's eyes had tears rimming @ her eyes (though she did not let it flow, I could see that she wanted to cry)... The difference was that my sister and I didn't feel that sad to the extent our tears would automatically form.

I thought that I was getting heartless because I did not feel that much... But maybe it's also because I don't have any sense of attachment to my grandma...? & I didn't have much good thoughts about her while she's well...? :/ I would prefer to believe it's the latter...