HELLO EVERYBODY! :D
I am in a damn happy mood now [x !
My parents made a very very very very sudden decision to go Vietnam today. My daddy just booked the tickets and tomorrow they will be departing Singapore. Tomorrow my maid is coming home too! hehe, no more house chores for me then. =o

okay... lets talk about yesterday ♥
Went on a movie outing with some spartan members !
Actually wanted to catch the 2.40 pm movie but because of late comers.... We dragged it to a 7.10 pm show ]: . $1.50 more okay! hahaha ]: I becoming more like wankin's surname. OKAY LAME HAHAHA.
-Bedtime stories-
Wasn't as nice as i expected it to be ]: aww. hahaha, however, i still had a great time out there. Because of spartans ♥ . Hehehe.
Special thanks to phat0m, for helping me forward many many messages && paying urm the $1.50 for me. :] LOL !

Today went kovan, met up with giennieve, opti, htp, wankin, nightz and phat0m :D . Bought chinchow and hamster food.
Walao, I shouldn't have tan xiao pian yi-ed! D: fuck lah. I go home, feed hamster then.... alot of fucking disgusting rice beetles crawl about. CCB. damn disgusting sight. i pour the food into a container then surrounded it in water. ._. let the fking beetles drown to death. muahahaha! okay i am especially sadistic to ugly insects. :]
Tmr I want to make ChinChow! Hope it turns out well~
And I want to attend Spartans ♥ Countdown. :]
Yeah~ :D Happy mood.

okay i shall stop blogging here~ byebye  ¶ 11:29 PM 0 Comments

  Went J8 library today with giennieve to mit up with kay :]
  ¶ 9:30 PM 0 Comments

  Hello everyone------- :D
Later i will be meeting kay to do my cheena homewrk. LOLL :D ty~
still nid to bring textbook, writing materials and paper and dictionary wors. D:
today i joined SPARTANS in audition , yeah. LOL. && giennieve is joining back audi. laughs .happy today.
went to gien's house at 10+ yesterday. actually couldn't have gone out course my parents don't want. LOL. but i knew hw to deal with it. gien sms-ed me said she was outside then i open door one. LOL i knew what my father was going to say manxzx.

DADDY: Go where? whrs her house?
ME: ahya, next block only. very near one. she alr outside (opens door)
DADDY: Where?
ME: giennieve~ (giennieve appears)
GIENNIEVE: uncle.
DADDY: -speechless look-

omfg, his speechless look damn priceless okay. i like that look, he's defeated. LAUGHS.

okay another ting. LOL, i just called giennieve on my hp.
here's the sequence:
-finds "GIEN :]" then click green call button.
-puts phone to my ear and str8away "Hello?"
LOLLLLL. when the phone haven even started ringing okay. damn zai right? LOL okay. i know that's stupid! :D  ¶ 3:37 PM 0 Comments

  Watched YES MAN! with serena n yujie. its a nice and funny show :]
but due to having only like 4 hours of slp, i was practically trying to keep myself awake during the movie. damn tired.
hope i will be watching bedtime stories tmr :]~

i wan the ability to charm~  ¶ 1:04 AM 0 Comments

 
I wanna watch this :D
hopefully can watch this tomorrow ~ [x
&& , yesterday's entertaining. really.  ¶ 2:20 PM 0 Comments

  ah, today is a good day okay!
damn happy, kay agreed to help me with cheena homework :D
then serena came home with twilight & new moon as xmas gift for me :D
next's daddy. laughs. i was hiding in eileen's room, using char's laptop and daddy called me. i felt irritated b'cos when he calls me, it is either to clean happy's shit or urine. happy had freedom today and i thought daddy would call me to put him back into the cage. So i answered irritably "WHAT?" , then i opened the door. LOL, who knows, he was smiling overthere, and he handed me a box of chocolates. make me feel so guilty can! LOL. although his present was actually from his colleagues to him, he gave it to me -.- course he din buy any! LOL.
today damn happy. i wan more gifts~ . :D  ¶ 9:57 PM 0 Comments

  Omg omg omg , guess what? my xmas eve is so fun-filled.
I'm gonna date with my homework & housework for the whole day, i think.
laughs~
wish me luck D:
  ¶ 2:42 PM 0 Comments

  Pissed off.
It was only my Internet explorer that had problems.
Now, my mozilla foxfire also have problems.
shitified manzxzxz.
it don't even remember links, the first browser to be opened can't even be used and friendster doesn't even load. fucked up man.
I wan to redownload but nothing is loading. this computer ought to be reformatted siol.

peektures:

i ♥ this dress :DD

hope gienn will buy hers soon~ :D

thaiExpress~  ¶ 10:16 AM 0 Comments

  Yesterday's a happy and suay day.
met up with giennieve at 10 + am , headed to AMK hub. We didn't really feel like eating , so simply bought a bread and sweettalk. wtf, i ordered honey red tea. and the girl like noob lor. tell her make honey red tea she can ask me to repeat 3 times. then on the 3rd time, she say " Honey green tea ?"
like fk. then nbm, she pour so much honey, then nver melt it properly then proceeded to put the red tea. want me get diabetes uh! when i got it, the honey is like in lumps lorh, due to she NOT melting it. screwed. but i drank it anyway. super sweet , and i cant take too much sweet stuff. i guess that's the reason why for the whole day, i didn't have appetite and feel a lil sick. stupid.
then we went to do face threading and eyebrow shaping :D imma happy man, because my blackheads on th nose is gone ! :D and my face look so hairless and clean now. wahahaha.

Then we proceeded to Far east plaza to shop for clothes. She couldn't find the sandals she want D: but i managed to buy a top, a dress, a pair of earrings from there. spent like 70+ bucks on these. After that we chiong-ed down our dinner cuz i was getting late for work D: we're at FarEast and my work's at Bedok for yesterday ._." so yah, met bun at Bedok at like 6.40 when i told him i can make it by 6.15 LOL. sorry.
my first working experience okay! giennieve accompanied me . thankyou! :D
but yesterday's location was sucky. the number of icecreams sold is like super pathetic. donwanna talk about it. and the best ting is - i did not even sell one. giennieve n bun sold de . D: .
omg. D: after that giennieve had to go home and we did not have any more people buying D:

PS: the first block we went is like cmi ._. - 1 rm flats and 99 % of the doors are not open. whole building so quiet that u don't hear any movement or television. damn ulu and scary. got one part still got very strong medicated oil smell. this signifies the old people . this whole block, we do like 1 level only, den change block le. course it's predicted there won't be sales here.

off work at 10.30, but left at 11pm. walked to MRT, but we weren't sure of the way. ._. so wasted lots of time, + my slow walking. bun had to remind me several times that the last train departs at 11.40. then i will walk faster. hwever, after a few minutes, u will see me lagging behind me again. LOL.

so, when we reached the station, he asked the guy if there's still train anot. the guy sae mei you le -.- then nbm we go search for bus. my bus was gone. bun decided to ton at giennieve's house with haigui n opti. shared cab to her house, and our pay's considered gone. course it's a meagre amount only. LOL.
giennieve requested i stay overnight at her house too, and i did so. the boys slept in one rm and the girls slept in another room. :D
yup.

now it's raining, and i don't feel like going home,yet. school is going to open! ugh i don wan D:

PS: thanks giennieve for lending me money, i will return u asap one! :D and thanks for being a great shopping buddy, and thanks for accompanying me to Bedok :x ROFLs :D xiexie.  ¶ 11:58 AM 0 Comments

  hohoho, i'm bored~
in awhile's time i'm gonna do my eyebrows. happy :D
But the idiot thing is, I DIN'T REALIZE MY MOTHER WENT OUT ALREADY! oh no, and i haven take money from her. how i shop man. shyt siol . zzz . i only have like 20 bucks in my wallet and i still have to top up my card. do eyebrow = $ 10 already? shyt siol. i wan to shop! argh. think i have to get some from my sister first. then i return her D:
ugh.

Yesterday went out with serena, belz, and luvy :D
Oh man i m happy. go out with them no nid spend money. LOL =X course my sister is the sponser. so... yup of course i ate alot, using her money.
We ate at ThaiExpress. i tink my dinner was the most expensive? i called erm one kind of rice, then springroll, and watermelon juice. adds up to about 20+ bucks. :x hehe. and that luvy is l-a-t-e! for so long , i tot i m the only one who can be late very outrageously (dono how to spell) mei xiang dao, he is even later than me. i reached PS at like um, 6+ pm. the trio ( serena, belz and me ) decided to walk around , while waiting for him. at around 7, we decided to eat first, course he told us to go ahead + we are hungry. was actually planning to eat at swesens but we saw thaiexpress located next to it, and of cuz we were tempted. LOL. Had a very full dinner. oh yeah, i din know softshell crabs are so nice to eat. i din even know that the shell can eat. yah i know , i am slow. but its becuz i don eat much seafood so i only realize this when belz shared her crab with me. omg, nice man. and the legs like twisties. ok -.- lame LOL!
ok and that barger (luvy) arrived when we ate finish. he did not refund us as a punishment for being late D: and threw away the receipt. But clever me kept the bigger receipt as evidence D: LOL.
Afterthat, we went play pool. due to my lousy skills, i lost to him. yah, and the other 2 girls kept looking at the lanshop across our pool table. so i decided to let them , and us play lan. LOL , after losing 2 rounds of pool. simple.
but who knows? that lanshop is like #@$@$@#%. LOL. not only we have to patch audition oursleves, the keyboard is like spoilt too? when i wanted to log in to msn, i realize when i click "@", it became " " ". -Bwg- . so i had to search for "@" in internet. -.- then i could logon to msn. yah, lame. serena's speaker got problem too. and we played awhile only, before we were shut off -.-
Luvy was feeling hungry as he did not eat and we went cathay to eat some supper. the 2 girls were very full from the last dinner, so was i . however, i know that if i see luvy eating, i will feel tempted to eat. so i ordered potato wedges. alas, i din know that it would be so many. LOL. nevertheless, i compressed the wedges into my stomach. hohoho. i nid to work out soon man. i am growing fatfatfat! okay, then belz's father sent us home :] arigto~  ¶ 2:09 PM 0 Comments

  Man, I'm contented! Yesterday i finally had my first blue beatup for "Hands up".
Today, I got it again! :D
Happy. Though the scores weren't good, but I'm still happy~
Evidence:

I'm also happy, because 大姨妈 came today but she did not make me feel uncomfortable in anyway. I think today is a good and sunny day :D
heh~  ¶ 2:23 PM 0 Comments

  Charlene brought back famous amos cookies and bread back for me :D
thanks! ❤ you :x
it's yummy! &, i'm seriously in need of water right now, after eating the cookies and one sausage bread ]: but i don't wanna go in the kitchen, later i see cockroach~ D:
she said that "a love to kill" is boring and stopped watching it after 1 -2 episodes ]: but i still feel like watching it. maybe i shall see from youtube, then decide whether to purchase it. rofls [[:

My audi acct has a bit more to go to reach 4 million :D, thanks to the bug. ❤  ¶ 11:43 PM 0 Comments

  Omg, I just had a 1 hour tuition with my sister. Mathematics.
My brain is not working properly. I can't even solve easy questions! Argh. I am doomed. ]: I don't want to proceed to Sec 4 now. Really ]':
I really can die :o !
My gosh! Why must Mathematics be so essential in life? I mean for most of the poly courses. Or else I won't even give a damn about it. I hate to fret over Mathematics. Shyt!  ¶ 5:28 PM 0 Comments

  Omg , i watched like 5 min of "a love to kill" in youtube and i really feel like buying the series to watch! argh. i get distracted real easily . T.T!  ¶ 1:39 PM 0 Comments

  went to buy books for next yr with giennieve today, shopped for some hair accessories :]
oh man, i still feel like watching dramas! one called "a love to kill" & the other "witch yoo hee" . i know its an old show. LOL , but nevertheless, i still want to catch it. however one series is 20 bucks each. oh man , i really dont want to waste my money and time on dramas anymore. but i just cant help but to tink about the shows ]:
i wanna catch "Bedtime Stories" on xmas, and "Hotel for dogs" too.
]: i see my money flying away~
Plans: Friday - mayb going out with baby, belz and luvy.
Sat - Go out with giennieve to do some shopping and make our brows
Sunday - mayb go out with giennieve to shop :]

i feel like getting more money from my mom first D:
so i can get more stuffs that i want ! :D
alright i'm gonna take a night shower now, cleanse and mosturize my face and put on a face mask i bought today. hope it really tightens my skin as it indicates ]: Don't cheat me please, arigato~

sayonara everyone.  ¶ 10:57 PM 0 Comments

  I can't believe how lucky Adelene can get :o!
In winning the tickets ._.!
Congrats anyway. :]

I've watched finish the korean series ! I hope I don't have anymore distractions please >.<>
2 more wks and I will have to wake up damn early and rush to go school. Then have to attend boring classes and do irritating homeworks. Gosh, I am just tired thinking about these. But at least I won't need to attend CCA after May? If I'm not wrong.
Sec 3 life sure passed fast in a blink of and eye. I guess sec 4 will too... Bad news is that I don't think I can ever be prepared for my O's in such a short time unless I really have a huge motivation to study and turn into a geek. Good news is after my O's, I can be considered "free" and I will be out in the school soon (considering I pass well ;[?)
But I don't care! I want to be out of that place.

I plan to execute these actions in the following year :
(1)Hire a private tutor for Chemistry and Mathematics
(2)Go out less, save more money
(3)Read the newspapers almost everyday to improve my English
(4)Study at least for 2 hours a day during weekdays after school
(5)Type in precise English whether in blogging or Msning

D: , gosh I'm really envious of brainy people now. I don't want to get like 20 over points for my O level results T.T
So, before my holidays are over, I'm gonna enjoy a little bit more :]
Should be going out with Giennieve soon to do our eyebrow shaping! ♥
开心!

Sayonara~  ¶ 7:01 PM 0 Comments

  I'm currently watching another korean series called 18岁:29岁 Days.
gonna finish it by tomorrow x] !
sayo .  ¶ 9:00 PM 0 Comments

  I'm B R O K E !
D: . 2 days ago, ask wk help me buy "Coffee Prince", its $20! T.T
Then i chiong-ed finish yesterday.
Today, went out with Serena and Yujie.
Was late bcause i was ai-meiing at the mirror LOL. too long no go out. D:
Then, bishan-ed.
While walking to the hawker centre to eat, my fking shoe's ribbon came off. (this is like the 3-4th time le ._.")
very irritating! argh.
Nevermind, so i walked with 1 shoe no ribbon and the other having a ribbon. weirdo. hope noone see that LOL.
then , we go AMK hub. bought car perfume for my father for his bday, gonna share the gift with serena and charlene. of cuz, still considering of buying something else too, if not we will seem super cheapo . LOL!
i bought my glue , face cleanser, toner, moisturizer and blackhead remover from fairprice too. then we went to shop for clothes. ._. i bought 2 , and it adds up to a grand total of $60! so expensive ]: but i was desperate for new clothes. so i just went ahead T.T"
after spending close to $100 today, my wallet is left with NO notes. LOL. and i still owe serena $1x.
after that, we caught "Twilight". urm... think its not very nice, only for the fighting part. but i guess i will catch it when the 2nd part comes out. =]
OH yea. guess what. earlier on, i was walking at fairprice and my other stupid shoe's ribbon came off too. STUPID! then my sis n her bf kip giggling. idiot.
i wanted to buy shoes today but i didn't even step into a shoe shop.
i wanted to shape my eye brows too! but when i went there, they said it's closed, come another time. so sucky. i m pissed D:
oh well. =[

PS: Yujie, if you're reading this, heh.... really luhs, lemme choose my xmas gift :x its better if i like the gift uh. LOL! :D

&&! today i saw coffee prince selling at around $12 . stupid! could have saved $8 T.T if i knew.......  ¶ 10:42 PM 0 Comments

 
Now, 11 days after HamHam's death, it's time for Hamu's (HamHam's mother).
RestInPeace, Hamu.
Thanks for the 3 lovely babies you gave me.
Idk why you died, but as i can see, one of your eyes are closed too...
Could you have been having the same respiratory illness as your lil girl?
This question will not be answered. But I really do hope that you will be happy with 2 of your children in hamster heaven.
You will be remembered. ♥  ¶ 5:14 PM 0 Comments

  my lucky star 放羊的星星 mv - part 9 (final)   ¶ 3:45 PM 0 Comments

  Precious - My Lucky Star MV   ¶ 3:15 PM 0 Comments

 
I guess I shall buy this series if it's cheap.
Anyway it's quite an old show.
Hope it will be cheap :D  ¶ 8:01 PM 0 Comments

  i feel like watching "couple or trouble" again. LOL.
but as i was surfing some MVs, i chanced upon "Coffee Prince" MV.
i was watching it few months back , but haven finish then i stop le.
i think i shall not waste time rewatching bah.
tmr i shall start on "Coffee Prince"! :D

okay, i said i wanted to study.
But i brought my chem books down, opened the sofa bed, and used the computer.
until now, my books are on the printer.
and i don have any motivation.
救命啊! D:
i need some motivation~  ¶ 5:38 PM 0 Comments

  i must start studying! :D  ¶ 1:18 PM 0 Comments

  i have a sudden urge to go kbox-ing again.
D: !
but one trip there costs $$ . boo hoo D:
serena, if u are reading this, *hinthint* ROFL. :]
nah, just joking. i'm not so bad. but if u want to sponser me again, i don mind xP
&& must rmb to buy me xmas present okay?
see my by 2011 list and get the idea yeah xD
sayonara~ ~ ~ ~ ~  ¶ 9:40 PM 0 Comments

  i ♥ Katekyo Hitman Reborn
i ♥ Bleach
=)  ¶ 8:16 PM 0 Comments

  when i go overseas, i will make it a point to visit their beach.
Because it is really a rare sight to see beautiful beaches.
Our beaches are not at all beautiful, i feel.
the waters are filled of particles, making it look murky instead of clear.
Beaches overseas are clear, blue and beautiful.
i think their sand are much finer too.

when i go taipei, i will make it a point to visit the Dream Family cafe.
hahaha =]
when i go korea, i will make it a point to go when it is winter.
then i can experience snow !

雪♥ i likee.
夢饗家餐廳 ♥ i want.
沙灘 ♥ i likee.

:D
  ¶ 2:49 PM 0 Comments

  It's currently 5.25 am .
I am almost done watching tou tou ai shang ni.
if not for some error :[
i guess i can only finish watching it after i wake up bah~
episode 16 and 20 (last) left xD
& i m so so so hungry now ! D:
holidays are coming to an end. and i don even think i can finish my homework, let alone revise for chem n math.
i am dead for next yr D:
&& i borrowed PS2 games to play.
i think i realli die liao.
LOL.
okay lah. it's getting really early.
i go have my beauty sleep le.
sayonara~  ¶ 5:24 AM 0 Comments

  yawn.
我好餓哦!
currently watching the show.
Jimmy not out yet D:  ¶ 10:01 PM 0 Comments

  my sister bought me a serial =]
got jimmy. but i tink only for a few episodes.
But it's okay.
THANKS sister.
&& , thanks in advance for tmr's treat LOL.
happy ♥  ¶ 9:43 PM 0 Comments

  You can ignore this post

我要進步我的華文!
所以﹐讓我寫寫一些華文字吧!
哈哈哈!我在哈哈大笑!
神精病!
哈哈。
對不起﹐我太無聊了。現在一個人孤孤凜單的在家。
開心(Happy)現在在睡覺。而我﹐我需要做家務事了!
所以。。。再見了哦。
  ¶ 6:03 PM 0 Comments

  I'm all alone at home again.
parents gone out to eat, sisters working or enjoying outside.
and i m gonna face the darkness in 1 hour's time.
my housewrk is not completed. and i feel lethargic.
argh D:
i wanna shop !  ¶ 5:52 PM 0 Comments

  我的腳好酸。
My leg is tiredddd from yesterday's chores! argh D:
i need to eat more food that nourishes my leg. LOL.
HOW? school holidays are coming to an end. AND, i haven even completed ONE homework. Pathetic! I hope alot ppl oso nver do, then got company. muahahaha.
okay.
i'm gonna be a literature student and teacher now.
need to teach and study the midsummer ting =]
sayonara~  ¶ 1:41 PM 0 Comments

  I swear cleaning the staircase carpet is very very very tiring.
我真的很累。
i'm gonna fall into my deep slumber now.
ciaos.  ¶ 10:46 PM 0 Comments

  I am eating icecream now .
i guess my mom is possessed when she when 7-11, course she bought alot of icecream. LOL!
okay. later i am going to do house chores again D: !
i'm gonna do more than yesterday! JY YULIN :D!
gosh , i dint know that folding clothes are so tiring. yesterday i took like 30 min to fold a pile of clothes?! D: rarrr.
and i did not get tuition. i guess i'm dead for next year D:

okay, a list of things to be done.

1. Mop floor
2. wash toilet
3. change bedsheets
4. clean dusty areas of house
5. fold & iron clothes
6. cook dinner
7. wash car (?)

Okay, tat's about it. I m not sure. HAHA. i wan a str8 set of teeths D: . But just for one teeth, it's not wise to put braces. T.T . i wan to implant an artificial tooth on that particular spot! argh . T.T
i wanna visit the Dream Family Cafe in Tapei~!
muahahaha  ¶ 2:34 PM 0 Comments

  I met him , finally.

I met Jimmy林志穎;
in my dreams.
LOL.
but i am happy LOLS.
although the dream is not a very good one.
I forgot what happened in front, but i was 1st in queue for his autograph session. Then i said something like " 你很會睡覺啊﹐ 睡到這樣。"
Then in my dream, he's pissed with me and hate me as a fan. LOL.
Giennieve was in my dream too, then she was with me at the autograph session. Then the host told jimmy to pick one fan who had baby face. And he picked her. LOL.
ok, but in my dream, jimmy doesn't like me D:
i also asked him when he got new album will come sg not, he say "yes" lei, then i sae " your new album will be out next yr rite?" , then he said "yes" too. LOL.
hope in real life he realli comes to sg.
But hope he doesn't hate me as a fan ROFL.

I came down late today, and now is 4.19pm. i still have household chores!
lemme list it down.

• Mop upstairs and downstairs floor
• Clean 2 toilets
  
• Cook dinner
• Wash the dishes

Don't play play. hahaha. if possible i want to get tutioned today too, if i can tahan.
Though i planned to go to GIANT today, i guess i can't liao. LOL . But its okay. i will go one day, soon. x]]

gotta go , ciaos.
  ¶ 4:07 PM 0 Comments

  Shih tzu snoring   ¶ 5:01 PM 0 Comments

  I haven even bathed.
ohmymama, i m lazy and trapped in the world of computer.
okay. I was seeing videos from hamsters to cats and dogs.
LOL , then i thought of searching up on "dogs snoring".
LOL , was looking at one shih tzu snoring in its slp and i heard noises from behind too.
Happy's snoring. LOL .
and i video-ed it down :} !
you can start from 23 sec there though, :]  ¶ 4:55 PM 0 Comments

 
我昨天忘了放這個照片。
HAHA :D  ¶ 2:54 PM 0 Comments

  i'm going out sooooon :D
but i feel so tired now. woke up at 6+ , wash dad's car, proceeded to feed the hammies, then water the plants, change hammies and happy's water, cook vege , mop floor.
man oh man, my hands are so gonna be wrinkled. gotta do sth about it.
heh , but its worth it.
ciao!  ¶ 2:40 PM 0 Comments

 






  ¶ 8:28 PM 0 Comments

 
"What are you looking at!"

"Hehe ; Cheese!"

OHohOHoh
I'm very very bored! I'm alone at home -.- .
I don't likee! D:
I don't like happy kip pee pee pee, then step on his own pee.
Just bathed him a few days ago, and he's all smelly again. EW!
I just cut his fur very very short on that last bath. LOL.
Now he looks like he did not eat enough. He's super skinny now.  ¶ 8:03 PM 0 Comments

  okay this blog thing sucks. I don't want to care about the look of my blog liao. i know what's the problem , but i dono hw to solve it cause i'm no IT pro $%#$%#%!. The colour of the blog header and the blog post text, is connected. but i dono hw to "disconnect" it. therefore, if i put "white" , the blog header and blog post text will appear white. D:
I only want my blog header to be white, bt my blog text to be silver. howhow D:
damn , forget it.

i want to go GIANT to shop ! Out of a sudden, i just feel so vain. I want to change my wardrobe, buy make up , buy perfume, bags and even lugguage! haha. But, no money no talk. ];
I cant wait to grad frm sec 4. i have alr plan to go to either korea or taiwan aft i graduate :D i wanna experience snow <3 .

And, i know, my blog has no readers except for a few who come in once in a while becuz they are too bored, and trying to find things to do. haha. so i don't have tags too . thats why i decided to remove my tagboard.

my homework is not even half done. I have no motivation to do it anyway.
& i hope my idol will come sg one day D: .
I wanna get a camera ! :]  ¶ 1:19 PM 0 Comments

 

Rest In Peace , HamHam.

Pronounced dead at 11.10 pm. 1 December 2008

I regret not spending more time with you. Sorry. You're not even 1 yr old yet you are gone. I didn't expect this day to come so soon. But at least i feel better, that i was able to be there for you while you were in pain , i suppose. I hope that you don't feel lonely till the end of your life. I am happy that you gave me some time before you departed from this world. I swear though I am not close to you, i am still devastated that you're gone. Though you're not close to me, i still cried for you. I just hoped that you experienced love that you did not have a chance to experience last time during your agony. I hope you did not feel lonely. I carried you, hoping you will feel better, knowing i am there for you till you leave, hoping you will get to experience love. I am sorry, you only got to experience it when it was almost your last breath. But i did not know you will be gone so fast. I thought i would have 1 more day with you. that was why after carrying you for 1hour+, i lay you back into your cage. How could you leave the world just as i put you down? Were you struggling to live as you did not want to die on me? Is that so? That's why you left the world after i lay you down? I am sorry. But i am happy that i got you buried, though it's not very well buried, i hope you will rest well and experience more love in your next life. & , i would also like to apologise to you, that you only got your name when you're not here. I just regret it. I should have gave you a name once you were born... But you only recieved it when you were gone. I am a very bad owner. I did not even record the date you and ur siblings entered this world... sorry. But i will always remember you. I will miss you , and your good personality, becuz you won't ever bite, you won't ever damage the cage. I hope you will meet your brother in hamster heaven and you won't be lonely again. I love you. I miss you. GoodBye baby.

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I dreamt of HamHam today. I dreamt she came back to life. How i wish the dream would come true. But it is only a dream. It isn't real. I guess i just miss her. She has taught me the vulnerability of life. She's still so young, not even 1 yr old. For one hour + , I was caring for her. Because i knew she would go soon. But din tink it as so soon. Just laying her down for less than 5 min , she's gone. I witnessed her death. How i wish i had carried her for a while longer. I wanted to be carrying her till her last breath but i tink she did not want it that way. I tink she was very sad and knew she was dying. she still crawled slowly at my arm. My life is full of regrets. If i could turn time back, i would have spent more time with her. How? i really miss her lots. i just can't stop tinking about her. I tink after hamu, kuaikuai and tiffany(not decided)? i will tink twice of raising hamsters. i don't wish to experience more deaths. It's really a sad thing. Ultimately, i don't want to experience the death of happy, or my family members. But i know i will, one day. i am afraid for that day to come...

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